The Moment a Child is Born ....so Is a Mom
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I have never wanted anything more than to be a MOM! A few weeks went by, with a few phone calls from birth mom and fewer phone calls from caseworker. I was getting my house ready, having baby showers and making sub plans for my class I was so busy! But it still seemed forever! On February 8th Caseworker calls and says birth mom went to the Dr and they were planning to induce on the 10th if she had not gone into labor. I can not imagine how women who have C-sections do it!!!!! To know that you will have a baby the next day......... I could not sleep that whole night on the 10th! Well we "wake up" on the 11th, Matt goes to get breakfast and a haircut and I stay RIGHT BY THE PHONE!!!!! At 9:30, phone rings, I pick up and on the other end of the line I hear the sweetest words EVER...."Amanda you have a new son" I have NEVER experienced mixed emotions....crying tears of happiness, tears of sadness (for birth family), I was scared, not of being a mom but things not working out and I truly already loved this little guy that I never felt, never heard cry, or never had seen before! We talked about her delivery, how much he weighed and all that GOOD stuff! I did not want to hang up with her. I called Matt and then Nana.....I told Nana I could not talk with out crying so she would need to call everyone....so she did! That day Nana and I went shopping...naturally! So now we were coming home and I am driving talking and my phone "message alert" dings and I am fiddling to find my phone.....I do not text and drive sooooooooo I get Nana to look and she says it is a picture of my son......I pull over at a gas station and just keep saying 'this is my son"! It was later that day when I started getting many more pictures of the "NEW MAN IN MY LIFE"
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I have never wanted anything more than to be a MOM! A few weeks went by, with a few phone calls from birth mom and fewer phone calls from caseworker. I was getting my house ready, having baby showers and making sub plans for my class I was so busy! But it still seemed forever! On February 8th Caseworker calls and says birth mom went to the Dr and they were planning to induce on the 10th if she had not gone into labor. I can not imagine how women who have C-sections do it!!!!! To know that you will have a baby the next day......... I could not sleep that whole night on the 10th! Well we "wake up" on the 11th, Matt goes to get breakfast and a haircut and I stay RIGHT BY THE PHONE!!!!! At 9:30, phone rings, I pick up and on the other end of the line I hear the sweetest words EVER...."Amanda you have a new son" I have NEVER experienced mixed emotions....crying tears of happiness, tears of sadness (for birth family), I was scared, not of being a mom but things not working out and I truly already loved this little guy that I never felt, never heard cry, or never had seen before! We talked about her delivery, how much he weighed and all that GOOD stuff! I did not want to hang up with her. I called Matt and then Nana.....I told Nana I could not talk with out crying so she would need to call everyone....so she did! That day Nana and I went shopping...naturally! So now we were coming home and I am driving talking and my phone "message alert" dings and I am fiddling to find my phone.....I do not text and drive sooooooooo I get Nana to look and she says it is a picture of my son......I pull over at a gas station and just keep saying 'this is my son"! It was later that day when I started getting many more pictures of the "NEW MAN IN MY LIFE"
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